A great life

so I started blogging again. Yay!!! I kind of missed it. But in the time period that I haven't been writing I found that I have gone through so much. Not too much, but I've hit some walls. My roommate was probably the first and biggest incident of the new semester so far, but I don't really want to talk about that. Im trying to get over it and have fun in life. The main point about this story is that she has a boyfriend. And ever since she started dating him, I found myself longing for a guy to be with even more now. I don't want to seem like this desperate boy crazed gal, but I think its just in my feminine genes. Wanting to be loved. Every girl wants happiness. I made up my mind my senior year that I wouldn't "date" until I was ready to get married and in techinical terms its not "dating" its courting. I don't want to waste my time with people who I won't spend the rest of my life with, and I don't want to waste my time with people who don't serve my lord and savior.

I'm not a perfect christian in anyway, I make mistakes everyday, but i'm trying my hardest to change. My goal is to get to heaven. I want to be in the kingdom, and I'm afraid that I have a lot of work to do. starting tonight I need to find time to spend with God everyday. I need to grow closer with Him. I need to look not only at my religion but I need to find a relationship with him. I can't find myself starting a relationship with any guy until I can say that I have a relationship with Him.

I know this idea of courting may seem weird to other people, but I actually love it! It's one less thing that I have to worry about while I'm in college. Relationships at my age hardly ever workout. I know that if I get on track and become consistently faithful to God, he will have someone waiting in the wings for me. Someone special, someone that I can talk to as if he were my best friend. Someone fun and loving, someone caring and romantic and most importantly someone who loves and fears God. Someone who will help me grow even more as a christian. But maybe I need to just help myself to grow, before I can start recieving His blessings.

Thats all,
Good night.